Sunday, October 20, 2013

God Cares About the Little Prayers: Adeline's Birth Story

God really does care about the "little prayers"..... you know the ones that seem so small and  lie deep within our hearts.

Since deciding to "try for another child" I have been overcome with the fear of the "what if's?"....

What if we can't get pregnant again?
What if we DO get pregnant again?
What if I am unable to carry another child to term?
What if Bella reacts negatively to a sibling?
What if I am not strong enough as a mother of two?

The list could literally go on for days and I've come to the sad conclusion that my list of "what if's" was a general lack of faith in God's concern for the "little prayers". Well, once I found out I was pregnant with baby #2, I began praying out my little prayers.  I was almost embarrassed to approach the throne of God with such meager requests....but then I remembered what the Bible says, 

Mark 11:24 

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

I am not naive to the fact that God is the ultimate authority on the the happenings of my life.  After all, He is the orchestrator of life and death and what comes and goes between the two.  I prayed for a healthy baby in Bella, and I received our Bella early, with complications, and later with God be the glory.  My prayers were not answered in the way I had formulated them in my heart.  My Father however, knowing that Josh and I were created for a child like Bella, in all actuality gave us a "special gift" we had not the words to ask for.  I cherish her.

So, that leads me to Sunday.... October 13, 2013.  The day our sweet Adeline was born.  She is now one week old and I wanted to share how God cherished and granted the "little" requests that were buried deep in my heart. 

I prayed for a safe pregnancy, and it was granted.

I prayed for energy to continue to be Bella's mom and it was granted.
I prayed for the fear of an early delivery to be taken away, and it was granted.
I prayed for a child full term, and she arrived fully formed.
I prayed for a fast and "easy" (ha!) delivery, and it was fast and furious and as easy and I could imagine a birth going.
I prayed for a healthy little girl, and Adeline was healthy.
I prayed that I would be able to breast feed, and I am doing it!
I prayed that when Bella met Adeline, she would be calm and joyful....and it was so.
I prayed that Bella would not regress due to the presence of our sweet Adeline, and she has not.

God you are so good.

I am cherishing the lack of sleep and quiet family moments we are having at the Earls house.  My husband is a rock and there is something super sexy about a man doing all of the household chores:)

Meet Adeline Mary Earls 

I wanted to also include a beautiful song I found this week which has been such a blessing to my heart as a new mother.  It's a rendition of the Lord's Prayer (the most beautiful one I've ever heard).

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Boasting in my weakness...

1 Corinthians 12:9-10

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

As I sit here, only a week (or so) away from giving birth to my second little girl, I reflect on the goodness of Christ's grace on my family.  This pregnancy has been a blessing (well, I could do without vomiting and generally being as large as a whale but I digress).  We waited over four years after giving birth to Bella to "try again" to bring a new life into this world.  I was so fearful to divide my attentions away from Bella's "special need".  I felt ill-equipped and weak.  God broke down those walls of insufficiency and placed a desire for another child on not only my heart but Josh's as well.  I am human therefore I was still tempted throughout this pregnancy to doubt God's providence in this new little life.  I doubted I could carry to term (which I now have, praise God).  I doubted the health and development of her little body within me.  Right now, I am praying through my fear of giving birth again and having complications like we did with Bella.

I sometimes doubt whether Adeline will be a typical developing child, and whether or not she too will have autism.

Goodness, I am a worrier....

But, God is so much bigger than my doubt.  When I feel these feelings I am reminded of the verses in the Bible that speak of a tender and careful Creator.  A Creator who plans all things in advance for the good of his people, even disabilities.  Bella is perfect the way she is and Adeline will be as well, no matter what!

Today I prayed that Adeline and Bella would become kindreds.  That they would share a supernatural bond.  That Bella would love her sister and feel a connection that could break down the walls of autism for the rest of her life.  I prayed also that Adeline would love her sister blamelessly, that she would have an extra ounce of patience and admiration for Bells.  I praise God in advance for hearing and answering these prayers. 

Motherhood is such a blessing, I still feel so unworthy! I am imperfect, yet God always seems to use the less than qualified to bring Him here goes nothing.  Pray that I sneeze and the baby pops out...hey, it could happen?  Stinkin' Eve.

Adeline's Nursery!

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

One more week until our world changes!

Blog friends,

So much to say, so little time! It's about one week until the newest Earls baby arrives.  We are preparing for this newest blessing and praying that she and Bella become kindreds for life.  We are also praying for a safe delivery and for God to prepare Bella for this big adjustment in her little life!

Until I have more time to really update this blog, here's a video of Bella and daddy to brighten your day!  My little patriots!