Monday, December 12, 2011

The Reason.

The reason for the season.

Josh is out in the field doing training right now, living in a tent.  This means we can speak on the phone periodically.  Let me first explain that when I'm alone, my mind tends to experience such clarity... pondering deep seeded thoughts and emotions.   Thus ensued an emotional phone conversation about our Bella.

This phone conversation was about how sometimes I am saddened that she doesn't understand Christmas traditions.  I can still remember when my mom and dad (sorry... I mean Santa) got us all bikes and we ran down the stairs discussing how Santa might have shoved them down the chimney.  Bella on the other hand, doesn't comprehend Santa.  Oh and threats about how "when your naughty you don't get presents" don't work either.  If I'm being honest, she would really be more excited about the wrapping paper than the presents themselves.  Yes, it is hard to watch other kids sit on Santa's lap and list off their requests while Bella can't bare to be around the masses, let alone sit on his lap.  A few days ago, we took her to Disney to show her the Christmas lights.  I was so excited imagining us walking the streets of Disney, smiling, laughing....  In reality, Bella basically cried for the first hour because it was so busy, so many lights, so many noises.  Sigh.  I felt so guilty pushing our desires for her to enjoy the holidays like "I" do (and did as a child).

Last night, it hit me.  It's as if God was slapping me in the face with, "Annie... are you kidding me right now?"...  "Are you truly that off base?"  I opened the Bible and found the verses below.  I was humbled to tears at the verses I read.  This season is about Jesus Christ.  The birth of the one and only blameless human being who would live, and die for me (for Bella), so that we could spend eternity in heaven.  Heaven, a place where autism does not exist by the way.  I praise God today for Christmas.  Instead of talking about Santa, Bella and I prayed last night and thanked God for Jesus.  She doesn't understand her Savior either, but He is the most important thing that ever happened to her.  

So, I AM enjoying the holidays.... seeing the decorations, watching  kids enjoying the festivities.  I'm even more excited though about this holiday now that God gave me a reality check.  Without Christmas we would have no hope. 

P.S.  I am I am going to attempt Christmas cookies with Bella.  This, she will enjoy.... painting the table, her body, the walls, with frosting... and I'm totally ok with that!

(Luke 1:26-38 ESV)

The Birth of Jesus Foretold...

In the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent from God to a city of Galilee named Nazareth, to a virgin betrothed to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David. And the virgin's name was Mary. And he came to her and said, “Greetings, O favored one, the Lord is with you!” But she was greatly troubled at the saying, and tried to discern what sort of greeting this might be. And the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found favor with God. And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bear a son, and you shall call his name Jesus. He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High. And the Lord God will give to him the throne of his father David, and he will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and of his kingdom there will be no end.”

And Mary said to the angel, “How will this be, since I am a virgin?”

And the angel answered her, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; therefore the child to be born will be called holy—the Son of God. And behold, your relative Elizabeth in her old age has also conceived a son, and this is the sixth month with her who was called barren. For nothing will be impossible with God.” And Mary said, “Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to your word.” And the angel departed from her.

Birth of Jesus...

(Luke 2:1-21 ESV)
In those days a decree went out from Caesar Augustus that all the world should be registered. This was the first registration when Quirinius was governor of Syria. And all went to be registered, each to his own town. And Joseph also went up from Galilee, from the town of Nazareth, to Judea, to the city of David, which is called Bethlehem, because he was of the house and lineage of David, to be registered with Mary, his betrothed, who was with child. And while they were there, the time came for her to give birth. And she gave birth to her firstborn son and wrapped him in swaddling cloths and laid him in a manger, because there was no place for them in the inn.

And in the same region there were shepherds out in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And an angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were filled with great fear. And the angel said to them, “Fear not, for behold, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord. And this will be a sign for you: you will find a baby wrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger.” And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying,

“Glory to God in the highest,
        and on earth peace among those with whom he is pleased!”

When the angels went away from them into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let us go over to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has made known to us.” And they went with haste and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby lying in a manger. And when they saw it, they made known the saying that had been told them concerning this child. And all who heard it wondered at what the shepherds told them. But Mary treasured up all these things, pondering them in her heart. And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all they had heard and seen, as it had been told them.

And at the end of eight days, when he was circumcised, he was called Jesus, the name given by the angel before he was conceived in the womb.

Here's a pic of Josh's in training in his tent ...
 Bella on her first day of school, and some of Bella and her cousins!


  1. miss you! have fun with the cookie making!

  2. I was actually thinking the same thing just recently--about the Christmas season. So many parents complain about various problems and issues that surround Christmas such as kids not being grateful and others. Few stop to think of the parents who would love to deal with those types of issues. The most they think is, "It really doesn't matter what gift I give xxxx because she doesn't really understand, so I will just get xxxx." End of thought, move onto the next task.
    Last Sunday, my family was at a Christmas party at the fire station and someone made a comment about how pretty Danielle is, having to keep a gun ready to fight off all the boys (kidding of course!). Across from me sat a friend whose daughter has autism that is quite pronounced. He will never have to deal with that issue, he will never hear anyone say such a thing about his daughter. She will more than likely never get to experience the love from a man and experience a first kiss. So many problems that will never be his to have.
    You whole heartedly recognize your blessings and cherish every moment, you see a beautiful girl with spunk and personality that few get the honor of seeing, you have a special bond with her that no one else will ever have because only you and Josh will truly understand her beautiful and awesome quirks. It may be tough, but you have been blessed with a family relationship that is so unique and special that few will understand.
    I have always seen your family as an "All American Picture Postcard Family" that belongs in a picture frame. Your family could be the brochure for families in your situation because you guys "get it." The other type of All American Family, how awesome is that?!
    Getting off the sappy tree and into a basket of flowers...
    How come she looks more mature and bigger? I know you don't feed her and she is on a liquid diet ;)